ignore this
in a couple months it’s gonna be a whole year since ash has said a word to me.
i don’t know how i could have fucked up so badly or what i did wrong. i don’t know if she thought i was gonna get mad at her or something??? i’m a grown man i can handle it when people i like have SOs since that is a thing that always happens anyway!! i realize i am the most unattractive person in the world so. i guess. it’s okay.
i just really miss my friend. i don’t know what i did. it’s probably my fault.
